Wizdumb

The last couple of days have been weird. I've not been able to laugh? Granted it's usually bizarre, and outlandish things that I do so for, but with my cheerful attitude this year- I'm confused. Again, granted I am easily confused. I am highly self- aware, blessing/curse.

My thoughts on what it is drying me out:

1. My new sleep schedule, I have decided that I want to get up at 5:30 am and go to bed at 10:30. (I have not been waking up at 5:30 since middle school)
2. My lack of feeling accomplished. Working on rectifying that. I am a very restless soul in this regard. I'm pained by stagnancy - but my hesitancy of getting involved butts heads a little bit. Being held back by my own worries. I can identify this sure enough. I've gotta block out what is said, or not said. The lack of praise or the presence of scorn. It's the only way.
3. Lack of social interaction, also in a way attributed to accomplishment. I haven't been doing too much in the way of people, in part voluntarily and in part due to an unavailability of people.

Didn't mean for that to sound dreary lol. today I get the chance to cram my skull with a bunch of math for monday (Math final ughh). Because who knows how I'll be after tomorrow. Because, at this time tomorrow I will be on my happy little way to surgery. Bye, Bye wisdom teeth. Let's get those instruments dug into my face!!! Did that paint the picture? the title says it all ;) 

While I have the floor what else do I have to say? Odds and ends. It seems like the fall is fighting to come forth (righteous). The next three things I'm looking forward to are Guardians of the Galaxy, hanging with two really cool people in the coming week and Starting the music engineering program at school. I am planning on taking this and another program. As well as taking a piano class or two. I am throwing my poetry out and seeing what publisher is going to bite. Writing a story and or comic script, and all around seeking out outlets to plug into. And, while still not feeling socially the strongest at the moment - maybe it's not a bad thing. keeping a good cross-hair on what I want. <B>